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[23 Aug 2004|09:09pm] |
Well...I leave for college on Thursday. I am so nervous and yet so excited. I can't wait to have my freedom; to be able to go out whenever I want and do whatever I want. I'm just scared though to start something new. I started packing today and I don't know if I brought too much stuff... I am really looking forward to decorating my room and I hope that I make friends...and I hope school isnt too hard. On the downside...I lost my calculator!! =*[ I really dont want to spend 80 bucks on another one. I always lost that thing last year at school or anthony would steal it. I had the worst luck with that stupid calculator! I went through everything and it is nowhere to be found. If anyone has it tell me please!!
Moving on...today was my last day at the Market Basket until winter break, which I am sooo happy about. No more working 16 hours on the weekends...ugh No more coming home from school to work at the MB!!! YESSSSS! I am so happy to get away from that place and hopefully I will be able to leave behind some bad memories. They just seem to be haunting me whenever I work.
Well tomorrow I am going to finish getting all of my stuff and then I will be ready!
I am gunna miss not seeing my friends = [
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I HATE KEVIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[30 Jul 2004|04:59pm] |
Ahh!!! I am home from Cali! and it was great. I went on my first plane ride and I survived. We flew from Newark to Dallas to Santa Barbara. It was so beautiful in Santa Barbara. IT was amazing. I was so suprised to see so many mountains out there. My image of California is the beach and surfers. Suprisingly, the beaches were not as nice as they are in Jersey. They are not as big and the waves were pretty small. The waves were small where I was due to the Channel Islands and the fact that Santa Barbara is an inlet. There werent even too many surfers. Plus the beaches werent as clean. THere was sooooo much sea weed that I didnt want to go swimming. The water is also colder out there since it comes from the north. I love swimming too, so that was a huge bummer. However the shopping there was out of this world! I went crazy!!! I love to shop, so this was like heaven. It was all outdoors on a street called State Street and it went for about a mile. ALl stores, like an outdoor mall. Everything was outside because it never rains in Cali, where my aunt lives. The last time it rained there was March, which is hard to believe. Every single day was sunny and warm, but not humid. In the morning and at night it was cool. We walked to town each day which was also a mile to get to, but sometimes we took a bus. We ate so much food but we just figured the walking would balance it out.
While I was in Cali I went to Hollywood, Beverly Hills!! (I looked for the 90210 house, but no1 knew where it was = [ ), Rodeo Dr, Malibou, SUmmerland, Bellaire, and LA. It was really nice. Then we went norht to wine country. The onlly star sighting was Fess Parker who was Davey Crocket and at the airport my cousin showed me someone from black eyed peas or something like that fergi or something ...i didnt really know who it was.
THE Best Part: HOllywood walk of fame and Beverly Hills
Worst Part: My beastly Aunt....she was such a beast the whole vacation...i could go on and on with stories...mayb in another entry i will
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[09 Jul 2004|04:42pm] |
Good things:
I got a raise today. = ]
I started playing tennis with my sister, Rachel, and her "Kate" friends, and Kevin.
It's fun and I am not the worst.
I went out to lunch with Chris and it was yummy. It was nice catching up. Then we went mini golfing and hit some balls. It was soo fun!!! We have to go again.
I bought a movie Indian SUmmer. I love it...I watched it 3 times already. It makes me wish that I went to camp.
I am reading a good book called Night Swimming.
I had some chicken cordon blue...my favorite dinner.
Then I went mini golfing with Kevin.
I got a hole in one on the first hole.
Plus I won!
My sister gave me her jean shorts that I have been dying to have.
Lauren came to visit me at work today.
I am going to Cali in a week!!!
Bad Things:...lets just try not to think about them...we dont want them to cancel out the good!
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[03 Jul 2004|03:18pm] |
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I have never been more hurt and upset for such a long period of time in my whole life than I am now. I feel like crap, worse than that actually. It is the worst feeling in the world. I hate everything that has happened and I just want to like die, i dont think I would in the long run...but right now I feel like a slug that got run over by a llooong train. It hurts so much, every single day...It is all I think about and the pain just keeps coming at me...but I cant seem to let go and remove myself from the situation. This issue has made me literally sick to my stomache...I can't sleep. I can't eat and I dream about it. All I do is cry. I hate it so much. I HATE THIS SO MUCH!!!!!!! I never thought this type of pain was possible for me...I didnt think that "I" would ever feel it....I knew it existed...but never knew to the degree that it hurts, until it happened to me.
My heart is broken.
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Today Kevin told me that I live a sheltered life. I have never been exposed to the evils that exist in this world. He is right. I am usually blinded by good. Everything around me is always nice. It doesn't mean that I don't have problems or have trouble doing things. It also does not mean that I am totally oblivious, because I am not. It's just that I don't see how cruel poeple can really be. Now that I have been able to see both sides, I wish that I didnt. I want to just go back and be happy. It is hard for me to understand why poeple are so insensitive to other people's feelings. Why are people so selfish, that they only look at their own needs and desires before anothers? While I am in no way selfless, I try to think of how my actions will affect those surrounding me. Seeing the pain that I felt, I would think....no matter how much I hated someone, I wouldn't want them to go through what I was going through. I even told this particular person that. But still, they did not respect me. I hate that. I hate that someone can be so blind as to not see another persons pain, the pain that they inflicted on them. It really really bothers and hurts me. It makes me hate them even more. Today I tried to make that person feel bad about themself and I dont know if it worked. I am going to try to stop using that tactic. I should try not to go to their level. I have to think about everything all around and try to be the better person. I should try to set an example for others....even if it is the hardest thing to do. Sometimes quiet things dont go by unnoticed...
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Firsts:
First job: babysitting
First screen name: kergirl2000
First funeral: my great grandma
First pet: dog Junior...he bit me every day so we had to give him away
First piercing: my ears just last summer
First tattoo: none, hate them
First credit card: i dont have one...
First kiss: freshman year, Kevin
First best friend: Melanie
First wedding: that i attended? my Uncle Bobbys, but I fell asleep under the table, I was only about 4
First enemy: there have always been poeple I dont like, but enemy....I guess Leslie because I hated her more than anyone
First favorite musician: Whitney Huston
Lasts:
Last car ride: coming back from CVS with Kevin an hour ago
Last kiss: during Seaside after prom
Last movie watched: Raising Helen
Last beverage drank: rootbeer float
Last food consumed: icecream
Last phone call: Kevin called an hour ago
Last lj-friend you added: Kristen
Last road trip: Seaside, the past weekend
Last time showered: this morning
Last CD played: some CD in Kevin's car
Last time you cooked from scratch: um,I dont cook
Last time you cut your toenails: hm, last week
Now:
Single or Taken: n/a
Sex: female
Birthday: March 31
Sign: Aires
Siblings: Meaghan
Hair color: brown
Eye color: green/blue
Shoe size: 71/2 or 8
Height: 5'3
Wearing: AE shorts and Student Council shirt
Drinking: nothing
Thinking about: my life..
Listening to: my computer
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